In Case Of Life

I would like it noted

2010-12-16T19:32:00.000+11:00

that I am just quietly freaking out.

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2010-12-10T19:48:00.001+11:00

That is all.

formspring.me

2010-11-16T14:40:00.003+11:00

Ask/tell me whatever. http://formspring.me/lucyfer

So, your exams are over. What's next?!?

2010-11-16T14:40:00.001+11:00

I don't know. relaxing this week. Schoolies next. Then, a job, I guess. YSA projects. All the things I put off doing this year. Enjoying not having anything intensely urgent to do.

Ask/tell me whatever.

Mum just came home with Roald Dahl box sets for all three of us.

2010-09-27T19:59:00.003+10:00

I am currently hugging mine and vowing never to open it. MY CHILDHOOD IS THIS BOX, GUYS. THESE ARE THE BOOKS I LEARNED TO READ. And that Mum read at night, etc. Ah, memories.

You mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, Darling.

2010-09-25T18:08:00.001+10:00

2010-09-15T18:29:00.001+10:00

Everything is always so complicated.

I'm just trying to make everyone happy but apparently I can't even do that right.

This is my first blog update in months, and it's not really worth it. please excuse this.

2010-09-05T15:49:00.001+10:00

I have just come to the conclusion that perhaps I am just boring and that is why -- everything.
That is why everything.

That is all.

THE INTERNET HAS A BUTTERBEER RECIPE.

2010-08-20T19:48:00.001+10:00

from here.

ingredients:
1 cup (8 oz) club soda or cream soda
½ cup (4 oz) butterscotch syrup (ice cream topping)
½ tablespoon butter

directions:
step 1: measure butterscotch and butter into a 2 cup (16 oz) glass. microwave on high for 1 to 1½ minutes, or until syrup is bubbly and butter is completely incorporated.
step 2: stir and cool for 30 seconds, then slowly mix in club soda. mixture will fizz quite a bit.
step 3: serve in two coffee mugs or small glasses

and some tips from my experience making it

it says cream soda or club soda so I made it with club soda because that it what we found in the market and I recommend doing that, I think it would be too over-the-top sweet with cream soda
don’t put the club soda in the fridge before, let it reach room temperature because you want the drink to stay hot
it tastes best if you are sitting on a stool in your favorite inn/pub, wearing your gryffindor scarf, and chilling with your best friends harry, ron and hermione (I would know)

a link with no explanation because wow

2010-08-18T22:21:00.001+10:00

link

this is mainly for my own archiving purposes.

A heap of links to photos I like. Linking because some aren't embed-enabled.

2010-08-06T20:10:00.002+10:00

One. Two. Three.

Four. Five. Six.

Seven. Eight. Nine.

Ten. Eleven. Twelve.

Thirteen. Fourteen. Fifteen.

Sixteen. Seventeen. Eighteen.

Nineteen. Twenty. Twenty One.

Pulp Fiction, MCS (actually an adorable song)

2010-07-29T22:58:00.000+10:00

It’s like a bad dream, something from the back of a magazine

Black and white and cheaply put together

Like a slasher film

I’m torn in opposite directions

The plot sucks but the killings are gorgeous

#ThingsthatpeoplesaytomewhenIamsulkingthatarenice

2010-07-29T21:43:00.000+10:00

Remember that -you- are the most important person in -your- life and that -you- don't deserve to be treated like crap by anyone. Because awesome people don't deserve anything less than snuggles and love.

Did not finish my english language homework.

2010-07-12T20:43:00.002+10:00

spent 3 hours obsessively organizing my eComics into their correct storylines and universes.

Night not well spent. Impulse control minimal. Motivation zilch.

I think everyone in our little dysfunctional group should hear this.

2010-07-09T21:36:00.003+10:00

You don't know just when to stop,
You're living life to be on top,
So step back and be real,
And just admit the way you feel,
And see that we are all one big learning gang.
And it's true that,
We all wanna be the baddest,
We all have a little baggage,
Even though we hide it
And we always will deny it,
We are driving this float down main,
In this pride parade...

And I'm not saying that I'm any better than you.
Sometimes I have motives that are just so stupid and I play the fool.
But man, you're killing me
The charade has got to end,
So stop acting like you know everything,
Because you're missing the point,
You are supposed to be my friend...

2010-06-29T17:30:00.003+10:00

I just really like these lyrics.

And I'm definitely considering dreams are worth giving up,
when everything seems way too much.

***

Suddenly every sentence that I convey
is covering up every mistake I've made,
And if we stay out here all night I'm sure we'll freeze,
but honestly I wish you wouldn't leave.

***

And if waking up alone in a bar is about as good as it gets,
At least I know I did my best,
I know I did my best to be yours,
My best to be yours.

/man I love this band.

2010-06-26T20:13:00.001+10:00

*sigh*

Q: What? Lucy? Where did your 4 years of posts go?

2010-06-26T19:10:00.000+10:00

A: I threw a tantrum and exported them, then deleted them. I might put some back.

Goddamnit

2010-06-24T18:59:00.002+10:00

I was so happy last night.

woo kittiesandpuppies spam.

2010-06-23T21:24:00.003+10:00

2010-06-22T22:01:00.002+10:00

Let's Get Fucked Up And Die, Motion City Soundtrack

2010-06-21T22:00:00.003+10:00

Let's get fucked up and die
I'm speaking figuratively, of course
Like the last time I committed suicide
Social suicide
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs
I've learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in
Let me in to the club
Cause I wanna belong
And I need to get strong
And if memory serves
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode
I'm about to explode
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect and I have learned to accept
all my problems and short comings
Cause I am so visceral yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds
And all the things that don't get old
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself
Through other peoples' descriptions of life
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless.
(In this department)

Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
We'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the night
That's no shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and be everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being
Maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.

Sister soldier you've been such a positive influence on my mental frame,
If I could ever repay you I would but I'm hard up for cash,
And my memory lacks initiative.

God damn the liquor store's closed
We're so close to scoring
It hurts, it destroys 'til it kills
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.
(In this department)

For once, this is not about the fanfiction. Just a concept.

2010-06-21T20:20:00.004+10:00

"No. It is. I can never - I can do monsters, I can do fighting, I can fight but when people - when just normal people - I thought they were gonna kill you. I didn't know what I could do. I couldn't - make the words come out quick enough, I couldn't get the right words to make them understand - why don't they just understand? How come people don't always understand that it's wrong to kill people? It doesn't make any sense. It never makes any sense."

"No." Ed's sense of morality, Roy thinks, is probably just too rational - it's a scientist's sense of morality and Ed transfers it blind of prejudice between every situation: if x is wrong (where x is killing someone because they've wronged you) then x is always wrong, always, always, always. Ed sees the contradictions and irrationalities that other people don't because they're hurt or angry or vengeful, whereas for Ed the x is immutable, and his utter and unique constancy has made him Roy's pole star, so fixed, so steadfast, so bright.

(via: thisficwhichisamazing)

I can't deny that I like the idea of "a scientist's sense of morality." I know that I, personally, don't have that, but it makes a lot of sense to me. When I read this, it just - rung true, I guess. Of a way that would, could, change the world. I don't know if that would be in a good or bad way, though. It IS too rational - there are so many variables to any given situation that you cannot just say X is wrong, without first taking into account Y, Z, and Q. In this case, the example of killing - I'd like to believe that that is how the world should work - X is wrong, always, always, always - but I do know that it's not. And it maybe shouldn't be.

Even if you ignore the whole concept of the morality of a scientist, the "blind of prejudice" part is important - if we did transfer our values to each situation without first saying "I approve of this person, and therefore their actions" and "I disapprove of this person, and therefore their actions," everything would be, not fairer, but at least more equal.

hmm like this song.

2010-06-07T21:45:00.005+10:00

2010-06-06T20:55:00.003+10:00

'Pain is easy to portray. But to use your passion and pain to portray the ecstasy and joy and magnificence of our world....'

- Dr. Black, Doctor Who, "Vincent and the Doctor", Season Five, Episode Ten.

And again.

2010-06-06T17:36:00.003+10:00

Who, me confused? Ambivalent?

Not so. Only your labels split me.

(Gloria Anzaldua)

Love you T(w)oo, by Maria Pallotta-Chiarollli

2010-06-06T17:32:00.002+10:00

'To life despite the prison, to spite the prison.'

2010-03-25T20:36:00.005+11:00

there is no-one on the internet.
there is no-one on the internet.
one more day of school.
I would really appreciate it if someone could be on the internet.
Alternatively if someone would get me the hell out of this house that would be nice.
Only tomorrow to go.
onlytomorrowtogo.
I want out of here. It's 8.40. if this was summer it'd be light. I'd probably be allowed out.
heyheyhello I think I'm going insane.
I am *this close* to bursting into tears for no particular reason, except for; Adam is not on the internet, Justin is not on the internet, oh god, what if something happened? *freaks out over what is probably nothing*
I remember being really upset by something someone said today, but I can't remember what was said; Just what it was in relation to and why it upset me.
I just. I want. I just.
those are the words that most things I think start with.
I am sorry for the stupid posting style. with the dot points and the disjointed rambling.
People. Internet. Please.

here have spam. i's bored.

2009-05-19T21:48:00.000+10:00

emily: i’m moving in.

naomi: where?
emily: here.
naomi: uh, isn’t that the sort of thing people usually discuss?
emily: i need to. okay?
naomi: okay.
emily: okay?
naomi: okay! although, in many ways, it’s sort of a violation. but fuck it, it’s okay.
emily: really?
naomi: really. it’ll be great! you can be my pyjamas.